No energy. That’s me tonight. I’ve barely been able to keep my eyes open since about 8PM. I hope this doesn’t mean I’ve caught something (again). It’s just as likely Tisen is the cause. He is back to scratching all night again. I feel like I did when we last had a puppy–being awakened every hour or so and finally settling down for the best sleep after taking our boy out to go potty in the wee hours of the morning, just before the alarm would go off.
Except there doesn’t seem to be an end in sight. We are trying a drug we’ve tried before that helped. We’re trying a new dose because it made him sick the last time we tried it. We’ll see if giving him less helps without the side effects. I feel guilty about this. At some point I wonder how much is about my need to sleep vs ending my dog’s suffering? Should I really be trying to give him a medication that made him sick? And which is worse for him? Scratching and chewing himself until he draws blood or a drug that makes him vomit and have diarrhea? Can’t we have a nice easy route to ending his allergies without side effects?
In the meantime, I’m nodding off over the keyboard yet again and wanting nothing more than a good night’s sleep tonight. I look at these photos of sunset and think that’s an apt way to describe how I feel at the moment–like the light is fading fast. But, the sun will rise again in the morning and I’ll be blinking, squinting, and, with much resistance, dragging myself back out of bed regardless of how much or how little I sleep.
Going to be is far easier. Here’s to sunset!